2012. It was supposed to be a year full of excitement at the face of a new life after leaving school. So much expectation, enthusiasm, and aspirations for the supposedly free year. However, it turned out to be a year full of surprises.
Using the word surprises doesn't seem so fitting if you look at it from a positive point of view. Every year, there are always ups and downs but I'll give it to 2012 for the most extreme ups and downs in a year.
Let's start off on a positive note. One of the most amazing things to happen in 2012 was that I got 10A+ for my SPM examinations. I was really elated by the results as I was honestly expecting something slightly lower. Well, you know, when you see you've gotten an A+ for the subject which you struggle to get an A, you have to be delighted that your hard work has paid off.
The next best thing that happened to me was the fact that I got 2 puppies towards the end of the year. Cute little puppies, playful and joyful as ever. I really enjoy their company as they're creatures who you can say anything too and they'll still love you.
The other good thing that happened in 2012 is that my friends and I had a lot more outings and meet ups. The dinner sessions were really fun to go for because we'll usually laugh our ass off joking about everything. For instance, during our latest dinner together, we caught on to the topic "harry potter and the missing muruku" and I almost threw up my dinner because I laughed too much.
It seems all so happy when I point out the positives but last year really brought me down to my knees. A year that tested me till the the bottom of my heart. A year that tested my courage, patience, determination and self reflection skills throughout the year.
I won't forget the depression I went through. The main reason I became depressed was the fact that the injury to my adductors were taking too long to heal, which meant I couldn't run. Running is my passion and to take that away for a long time proved to be the reason for my ultimate downfall.
Since I've shrugged off the depression now, I don't want to go in details with it. The worst part was that I was losing ground on all the things that mattered the most to me that I felt so helpless. The idea of giving up struck my mind time and time again.
Luckily for me, my closest friends helped me out of it. They advised me, each in their very own way on how I should tackle my problems. Today, I have to thank them for all they've done for me.
Other negatives for 2012 was the robbery that happened in my house and the fact that I couldn't bode well with my current classmates. I'm getting on pretty well but then there's still this thing inside of me to be around fun people who enjoy life while in class. I made up my mind that if I was going to go through 1 1/2 years in my current college, I must learn how to accept differences.
So you see, 2012 isn't really a year I can look back to and say, "Hey, I really did have a meaningful year". If there's another thing I can take from 2012, it would be how strong I've become, emotionally. Due to so many problems, I've had to train myself to suppress feelings for affection and to keep strong. Tough times, when I look back, but, I'm going to use that strength to carry me after this.
Determined to shrug off that dreadful year, I made a few plans and resolutions for this year. Unfortunately, I'm not planning to reveal them here as I'd made quite a few personal ones. The thing is, my life revolves around a few people who read this blog so revealing some things won't be so appropriate for some.
Well, one thing I can reveal here is that I've made quite a tight schedule for myself. I've had to because I would be sitting for 5 exams this year-AS exam, A2 exam, TOEFL, SAT 1 and SAT 2 (Maths and Physics). So, I've got a pretty busy and hectic year up ahead.
Bad times come and go. What we've got to do is to learn from them. I'm grateful in the sense that I've managed to get some positives out of 2012. The most important one will be the emotional strength I've obtained from the depression I went through. And you know what, I'm already staring at the door of a brighter 2013 in front of me. Happy New Year!
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